Charlie Sheen is looking back at his life 10 years ago when his public meltdown took social media by storm.
The now 55-year-old actor admits he has regrets about giving outlandish interviews and making phrases like “tiger blood” and “winning” trending hashtags.
“People have [said to] me, ‘Hey, man, that was so cool, that was so fun to watch. That was so cool to be a part of and support and all that energy and, you know, we stuck it to the man,’” Charlie told Yahoo!. “My thought behind that is, ‘Oh, yeah, great. I’m so glad that I traded early retirement for a f***ing hashtag.’ ”
He continued, saying that there were “55 different ways for me to handle that situation, and I chose number 56. And so, you know, I think the growth for me post-meltdown or melt forward or melt somewhere — however you want to label it — it has to start with absolute ownership of my role in all of it, and it was desperately juvenile.”
Charlie admits that the drugs he was taking absolutely affected what happened.
“I think it was drugs or the residual effects of drugs … and it was also an ocean of stress and a volcano of disdain. It was all self-generated, you know,” Charlie adds. “All I had to do was take a step back and say, ‘OK, let’s make a list. Let’s list, like, everything that’s cool in my life that’s going on right now. Let’s make a list of what’s not cool.’ You know what I’m saying? And the cool list was really full. The not cool list was, like, two things that could’ve been easily dismissed. I was getting loaded and my brain wasn’t working right.”
He also says that what he needed then was “someone to reach out to and say, ‘Hey, man, obviously there’s a ton of other s*** going on. How can we help?’ Instead, they showed up in droves with banners and songs, all types of fanfare and celebration of, you know, what I think was a very public display of a mental health moment.”
Today, Charlie is focusing on a new show and he has “absolute faith that the things I’m going to do professionally in Act 3 are going to put a muzzle on all that stuff and people can celebrate me again for what I actually do for a living.”